My fourteenth pregnancy was a twin pregnancy and a high risk, complex one at that.
I fell pregnant in 2016 with twins, however at just 11 weeks into my pregnancy I started to bleed really heavily and before I knew it, we feared the worst, that I was probably miscarrying as there was a lot of blood and huge clots.
I had to go to hospital and was examined. The doctor said that the cervix was closed. We were so confused and wondered how the babies could possibly have that amount of blood loss.
What made matters worse was that we had to wait an agonising three days for a scan to find out if I’d miscarried our twins.
I was anxious and worried and scared as based on previous experience. I knew that this situation wasn’t looking good for us or our babies at all – the situation was an extremely grave one.
We had the ultrasound and heard a heart beat sound. We were checked over and told that there was only one heartbeat so unfortunately, one twin had passed.
We had a mixture of sadness for the baby we would never get to meet or know and a sense of relief for the remaining twin that he was holding on and that he was still here with us.
It was an extremely difficult pregnancy with unexplained bleeding right up to 34 weeks before it cleared up completely. Even the doctors did not understand how I could have a trace of blood in my urine samples but still be pregnant.
This surviving twin really was a miracle. We felt blessed when he arrived in November 2016. However, we also felt sadness that both twins were not here and that our son didn’t have his brother with him.
We had a feeling his twin was a boy and we called him Neo Gabriel Simeon Livingston. Both of our twins were much longed for and wanted and loved.
Especially after the sad and upsetting losses of our first, fifth, sixth, seventh, ninth, tenth, twelfth, thirteenth children and the happy births of our rainbow babies 
as in our second, third, fourth, eighth, eleventh rainbows.
as in our second, third, fourth, eighth, eleventh rainbows. It was really hard losing one of our twins and we always feel a sense of Sadness when we see our son playing, thinking his twin should be here with him.
We just hope that our son knows how much we love and miss him and wanted him and hope to one day reunite with him in Spirit when it’s our time. Neo would be 9 years old this year in November (2025) 
Thank you so much for honouring our angel.
Jo and Rob Livingston
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